Impatient!

Today I found myself thinking nonstop about this pregnancy and the future. I am so excited, but so deathly afraid at the same time. Will I be a good mother? Us good parents?

Will we know what to expect and/or what to do when the baby comes or if the baby is sick? A million thoughts like these are constantly running through my mind and not knowing the answers scares me. But, most women including my mother have all said that instincts will take over and that's a little relieving to hear.

Right now I find myself dreaming of all the cute things that come along with pregnancy. Maternity clothes, maternity pictures, the weekly baby belly photos, and of course baby names.

Speaking of baby names, that brings me to a very important point. Tim and I do not want to know the sex of our baby until the day he or she comes into the world. We love the idea of being surprised and having the doctor say "It's a ___!" at the most perfect moment. This has been something we've both always wanted and have talked about since before we even got married. Everyone thinks we're crazy to not want to know because it makes everything "easier" when you do. I see the point they're trying to make, but that's just not the way we want to do it.

I think the hardest thing about pregnancy for me so far is knowing what I can/can't eat and what I can/can't do. It sucks, but I'd rather be safe than sorry, so I'm following the guidelines to a tee. My only symptoms are cramping, still just being very tired at the end of the day and having sore breasts. I've heard that morning sickness for a lot of women happens between the 5th and 6th week, so we'll see what happens shortly. I've been very fortunate so far in that aspect of things.

Fingers crossed for a happy and healthy 9 months!